When she came to that part of the letter in which her family were mentioned, in terms of such mortifying yet merited reproach, her sense of shame was severe. The justice of the charge struck her too forcibly for denial, and the circumstances to which he particularlyalluded, as having passed at the Netherfield ball, and as confirming all his first disapprobation, could not have made a stronger impression on his mind than on hers. The compliment to herself and her sister was not unfelt. It soothed, but it could not console her for the contempt which had been thus self-attracted by the rest of her family; -- and as she considered that Jane's disappointment had in fact been the work of her nearest relations, and reflected how materially the credit of both must be hurt by such impropriety of conduct, she felt depressed beyond any thing she had ever known before.
當她讀到他提起她家里人的那一段時，其中措辭固然傷人感情，然而那一番責難卻也入情入理，于是她越發覺得慚愧。那真是一針見血的指責，使她否認不得；他特別指出，尼日斐花園建交舞會上的種種情形，是第一次造成他反對這門婚姻的原因──老實說，那種情形固然使他難以忘懷，自己也同樣難以忘懷。至于他對她自己和對她姐姐的恭維，她也不是無動于中。她聽了很舒服，可是她并沒有因此而感到安慰，因為她家里人不爭氣，招來他的訾議，并不能從恭維中得到補償。她認為吉英的失望完全是自己的至親骨肉一手造成的，她又想到，她們兩姐妹的優點也一定會因為至親骨肉的行為失檢而受到損害，想到這里，她感到從來沒有過的沮喪。
After wandering along the lane for two hours, giving way to every variety of thought; re-considering events, determining probabilities, and reconciling herself, as well as she could, to a change so sudden and so important, fatigue, and a recollection of her long absence made her at length return home; and she entered the house with the wish of appearing cheerful as usual, and the resolution of repressing such reflections as must make her unfit for conversation.
她沿著小路走了兩個鐘頭，前前后后地左思右想，又把好多事情重新考慮了一番，判斷一下是否確有其事。這一次突然的變更，實在事關緊要，她得盡量面對事實。她現在覺得疲倦了，又想到出來已久，應該回去了；她希望走進屋子的時候臉色能象平常一樣愉快，又決計把那些心思抑制一下，免得跟人家談起話來態度不自然。
She was immediately told, that the two gentlemen from Rosings had each called during her absence; Mr. Darcy, only for a few minutes to take leave, but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had been sitting with them at least an hour, hoping for her return, and almost resolving to walk after her till she could be found. -- Elizabeth could but just affect concern in missing him; she really rejoiced at it. Colonel Fitzwilliam was no longer an object. She could think only of her letter.
回到屋子里，人家立刻告訴她說，在她出外的當兒，羅新斯的兩位先生都來看過她了，達西先生是來辭行的，只待了幾分鐘就走了，費茨威廉上校卻跟她們在一起坐了足足一個鐘頭，盼望著她回來，幾乎想要跑出去找到她才肯罷休。伊麗莎白雖然表面上裝出很惋惜的樣子，內心里卻因為沒有見到這位訪客而感到萬分高興。她心目中再也沒有費茨威廉了，她想到的只有那封信。
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