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Well, it was the night of the twelfth day of my 21-day trip. I'm settling into camp.
那是在21天旅行中第十二天的晚上。我在帳篷里安置了下來。
I'd already hiked 80 miles to this point and I had a three-day trek to Machu Pichu.
當(dāng)時(shí)我已經(jīng)徒步走了80英里，我還要坐三天的牛車前往馬丘比丘。
And I was full-on sick of myself.
我對(duì)自己厭煩透了。
Wrestling with the loss of my anonymity, I was guilt ridden for sins of my past, I was a lot of regret.
不能再隱匿身份，這令我很糾結(jié)，我為自己過去的罪過感到慚愧無比，滿是悔恨。
I was lonely, disgusted with my company: mine, and I was doing a pretty good job of mentally beating the shit out of myself.
我很孤獨(dú)，對(duì)我的同伴——我自己充滿厭惡之情，還在思想上層面狠狠批斗了自己一番。
Anyway, grappling with these demons on this night, I couldn't sleep.
不管怎么說，由于那一晚同那些魔鬼斗爭，我無法入睡。
All of these badges and banners and expectations and anxieties I was carrying with me: I needed to free myself from them.
我隨身攜帶的所有的獎(jiǎng)?wù)隆⑵鞄谩⑵诖徒箲]：我需要使自己擺脫它們。
"Who was I?" I asked myself, not only on this trip, but in this life. So I stripped down to nothing.
不光是在這次旅行中，在整個(gè)一生之中我都在捫心自問：“我曾經(jīng)是誰？”所以我把自己剝得干干凈凈。
I took every moniker that gave me pride and confidence, all the window dressings, the packaging around the product.
我清除了所有給我?guī)眚湴梁托判牡臉?biāo)記，所有的窗戶裝飾物，產(chǎn)品外包裝。
I discard them all. I got rid of my lucky and faithful American cap.
我把它們?nèi)既恿恕Ｎ襾G掉了一直戴著的、給我?guī)硇疫\(yùn)的美式帽子。
I stripped off my talismans from adventures past.
我摘掉了以往探險(xiǎn)中得到的護(hù)身符。
I even discarded my late father's gold ring with an M on it that he gave to me,
我甚至丟掉了已經(jīng)過世了的父親給我的金戒指，上面有個(gè)字母M。
and it was a meltdown of he and my mom's class rings and gold from my mom's teeth. I even got rid of that.
那是他和我媽媽的畢業(yè)戒指再加上媽媽的金牙融化后制成的。我把那也扔了。
I was naked. Literally and figuratively. And I got sick.
我赤身裸體。不論是字面意思還是比喻意思都是如此。我感到惡心。
Soaked in sweat, I threw up until there was no bile left in my belly, and finally passed out from exhaustion.
大汗淋漓，嘔吐不止，直到吐光了膽汁，最終筋疲力盡，昏迷了過去。
Now, a few hours later, I awoke on this thirteenth morning to a rising sun. Surprisingly fresh and energized.
幾個(gè)鐘頭后，我在旅行的第十三天的早晨醒了過來，看到一輪初升的太陽。我感到不可思議的精神抖擻。
I dressed, made some tea and I went for a morning walk.
我穿好衣服，泡了點(diǎn)兒茶喝，然后出去散步。
Not towards my destination Machu Pichu, but rather to nowhere in particular.
不是去我的目的地馬丘比丘，而是漫無目的地閑逛。
My gut was still a bit piqued from last night's purge,
由于前一晚的嘔吐，我的腸道仍然有些不適，
but I curiously felt pretty good: felt alive, felt clean, felt free and light.
但奇怪的是我感覺相當(dāng)不錯(cuò)：充滿活力，潔凈，自由輕松。
