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And yet, I knew from the work I had done that if he had any of the things we were about to start testing for,
我的工作經(jīng)驗讓我得知，如果經(jīng)過哪些檢查，發(fā)現(xiàn)他有什么問題，
that those would ultimately be his identity,and if they were his identity they would become my identity,that that illness was going to take a very different shape as it unfolded.
那將永久成為他的特性，如果這是他的特性，也將會是我的特性，這將不同于病癥最初呈現(xiàn)的那樣。
We took him to the MRI machine, we took him to the CAT scanner,
我們帶他做核磁共振，帶他做計算機化X射線軸向分層造影，
we took this day-old child and gave him over for an arterial blood draw.
我們帶著這個出生僅一天的孩子做動脈抽血。
We felt helpless.
我們感到無助。
And at the end of five hours,
五個小時后，
they said that his brain was completely clear and that he was by then extending his legs correctly.
醫(yī)生們說他的大腦完全沒問題，也可以完全正常伸展他的雙腿。
And when I asked the pediatrician what had been going on,she said she thought in the morning he had probably had a cramp.
當我問兒科醫(yī)生這是怎么回事，她說，她覺得早上他可能抽筋了。
But I thought how my mother was right.
我認為我的母親是正確的。
I thought, the love you have for your children is unlike any other feeling in the world,
我以為你對自己孩子的愛是不同于世界上任何其他感覺的，
and until you have children, you don't know what it feels like.
直到你有孩子，你才知道那是什么樣的感覺。
I think children had ensnared me the moment I connected fatherhood with loss.
我想是孩子讓我，認為自己不是個稱職的父親。
But I'm not sure I would have noticed that if I hadn't been so in the thick of this research project of mine.
但我不確定自己會注意到，要不是我做了這么繁復(fù)的研究項目，
I'd encountered so much strange love,and I fell very naturally into its bewitching patterns.
我遇到了太多奇怪的愛，然后我很自然地陷入其迷人的模式。
And I saw how splendor can illuminate even the most abject vulnerabilities.
我看到光彩如何照亮最不幸的脆弱之處。
During these 10 years, I had witnessed and learned the terrifying joy of unbearable responsibility,
在這 10 年期間，我曾目睹和了解到，那些難以承受的責(zé)任，
and I had come to see how it conquers everything else.
我也看到了它如何克服一切苦難。
And while I had sometimes thought the parents I was interviewing were fools,
我曾經(jīng)有時會想，我正在采訪的父母是傻瓜，
enslaving themselves to a lifetime's journey with their thankless children and trying to breed identity out of misery,
讓自己踏上給不知感恩的孩子們一生為奴的旅程，試圖從痛苦中獲得身份認同，我意識到，從研究開始那天起，我已建造了一塊踏板，
I realized that day that my research had built me a plank and that I was ready to join them on their ship.Thank you.
隨時準備著與他們同舟共濟。謝謝。
