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And she goes, "Uh... no."
然后她說：“呃，不記得。”
Of course, the only thing I could say at that point was, "Yeah, me neither. Yeah -- me neither."
所以當然了，我也只能說：“哦，我也是...我也是。”
And I'm thinking to myself, "Brené, what are you doing? Why did you bring this up?
然后我對自己說：“布琳，你在干什么？你在干嗎呢？你怎么會提這個？
Have you lost your mind? Your sisters would be perfect for this."
你昏了頭了嗎？ 你的姐妹這方面是很完美的。”
So I looked back up and she said, "Are you really going to try to break in and steal the video before they put it on YouTube?"
我回過神來，于是她說： “你不會是真的想撬門進去，在他們上傳到YouTube之前，把視頻偷出來吧？”
And I said, "I'm just thinking about it a little bit."
我說：“我就是想了一小下。”
She said, "You're like the worst vulnerability role model ever."
她說：“你就是史上最糟糕的脆弱者榜樣。”
Then I looked at her and I said something that at the time felt a little dramatic, but ended up being more prophetic than dramatic.
然后我看著她說了一些，當時看有點戲劇性，現在看更像是預言的話。
I said, "If 500 turns into 1,000 or 2,000, my life is over."
如果500變成1000或者2000，我就死定了。
I had no contingency plan for four million.
我壓根就沒想過四百萬點擊率是什么情況。
And my life did end when that happened.
于是我的生活真的完了。
And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned something hard about myself,
而或許其中最困難的，就是我發現了自身糾結的那一部分，
and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world,
那就是：一方面我會因為無法把我的工作成果展現給公眾而失落，
there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar.
而另一方面我又非常努力想做到不引人注目，隱藏在公眾的視線之下。
But I want to talk about what I've learned.
但是我想講一下我所學到的。
There's two things that I've learned in the last year.
在過去的一年我學到兩件事。
