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When I was finally discharged from Kings Parks, the more evident symptoms of my illness had disappeared
在我最終從“國王公園”出院時，那些比較明顯的病癥已經(jīng)消失，
so that I was thought of as a reasonable and levelheaded man.
因此我被認為是一個通情達理、頭腦冷靜的人。
But the cure would take time.
不過，治愈尚需時間。
For some years I was subject to the sudden onsets I have mentioned:
有幾年，我前面提到過的病癥會突然發(fā)作:
a heart that beat faster, and shaking, and sweating.
心臟快搏，渾身發(fā)抖，盜汗。
I would imagine shells falling and hear the sound of guns.
我時常想象到炮彈落地，聽到槍聲大作。
I could not stand being confined.
我無法忍受被幽閉的感覺，
And I had the habits that remain with soldiers.
還保持著當兵時養(yǎng)成的習慣，
One in particular: when I went walking I would keep an eye peeled for an enemy position.
特別是在散步時，我常常留神監(jiān)視著敵人陣地。
If there was an open field I would think, how are we going to get across that?
如果有一片開闊的地方，我就想，我們?nèi)绾尾拍芡ㄟ^呢？
I imagined lying again on a railroad embankment in Normandy, waiting to be told to go over it in spite of the bullets that were sweeping to and fro directly above me.
我曾想象著自己正在諾曼底趴在鐵路路基上，盡管頭上彈雨橫飛，還等待著命令沖過去。
That day I was sure I would be killed.
那天， 我斷定自己必死無疑。
Or I was in a graveyard in Holland with shells falling and the living getting mixed in with the dead.
我還會想象到自己正呆在荷蘭的一片墓地里，頭上彈片在飛落，地上生者與死者的尸體混在一起，難以分辨。
I was in the Ardennes, standing in a foxhole among trees covered with snow and stamping my feet.
有時我在阿登高原，站在白雪覆蓋的樹林里的一個散兵 坑里，跺著腳，
They were freezing.
我的腳都凍僵了。
