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And in that moment, my right arm went totally paralyzed by my side.
那一刻，我的右手完全癱瘓了，
Then I realized, "Oh my gosh! I'm having a stroke!" And the next thing my brain says to me is, Wow! This is so cool!
我意識到“噢天哪！我中風了！我中風了！”接著我的腦子對我說：“哇噢！“很酷嘛！
This is so cool! How many brain scientists have the opportunity to study their own brain from the inside out?"
這簡直太酷了！”“有多少腦科專家能有機會在他們自己的腦子上進行學術研究啊！”
And then it crosses my mind, "But I'm a very busy woman!" "I don't have time for a stroke!"
接著我的腦子里回響，“但我是個非常忙的人！”“我可沒時間中風！”
So I'm like, "OK, I can't stop the stroke from happening, so I'll do this for a week or two, and then I'll get back to my routine.
接著我就像是，“那好吧，我沒有辦法阻止中風的發生，那么我就這樣過一兩個禮拜，然后就回到自己本來的生活，
OK. So I've got to call help. I've got to call work."
嗯！我需要幫助，我得給單位打個電話！”
I couldn't remember the number at work, so I remembered, in my office I had a business card with my number.
但我記不起單位的電話號碼了，接著我想起在我的辦公室我有一張名片，上面有我的號碼，
So I go into my business room, I pull out a three-inch stack of business cards.
于是我回到了我的屋里，我找出了一疊兒三英寸大小的名片。
And I'm looking at the card on top and even though I could see clearly in my mind's eye what my business card looked like,
我盯著名片的正面，雖然我能看得很清楚我的名片長什么樣兒，
I couldn't tell if this was my card or not, because all I could see were pixels.
但是我卻沒有辦法分辨出這張卡是不是我的，或許是因為我能看到的只是像素一樣的東西。
And the pixels of the words blended with the pixels of the background and the pixels of the symbols, and I just couldn't tell.
而且是名片的上的單詞混合起來的像素。就像是與背景和那些標點符號混合起來的，而我就是無法辨認。
And then I would wait for what I call a wave of clarity.
之后我就等著，等著我希望的那種清楚地感覺出現。
And in that moment, I would be able to reattach to normal reality and I could tell that's not the card... that's not the card.
那個時候，我就能夠重新與現實結合起來，然后我也發現那不是我要的名片...那不是我要的名片...
It took me 45 minutes to get one inch down inside of that stack of cards.
我整整花了45分鐘從那一疊兒名片中一張一張的找我的名片。
In the meantime, for 45 minutes, the hemorrhage is getting bigger in my left hemisphere.
同時經過這45分鐘，我左腦里的積血越來越多了。
I do not understand numbers, I do not understand the telephone, but it's the only plan I have.
我看不懂數字，我沒辦法打電話，但是我也只能這樣做了。
So I take the phone pad and I put it right here. I take the business card, I put it right here,
于是我把電話簿拿起來放在那兒，我拿起了名片，也把它放在那兒，
and I'm matching the shape of the squiggles on the card to the shape of the squiggles on the phone pad.
我把名片上那些亂七八糟的文字，和電話簿上那些亂七八糟的文字一一對比。
But then I would drift back out into La La Land, and not remember when I came back if I'd already dialed those numbers.
接著我又飄到了我的“啦啦之地”去了，也不記得當我回到現實的時候，我到底有沒有撥通了那些號碼。
So I had to wield my paralyzed arm like a stump and cover the numbers as I went along and pushed them,
我不得不把我那癱掉的胳膊像舉樹樁一樣舉起，移到那些號碼上然后摁下，
so that as I would come back to normal reality, I'd be able to tell, "Yes, I've already dialed that number."
那樣我就能夠回到正常的現實里面，告訴自己，“對，我已經撥通了那個號碼！”最終，整個號碼被撥通了。”
Eventually, the whole number gets dialed and I'm listening to the phone, and my colleague picks up the phone and he says to me, "Woo woo woo woo."
我拿著聽筒，我的同事接聽了電話，并對我說“汪汪汪汪，”
And I think to myself, "Oh my gosh, he sounds like a Golden Retriever!"
我不禁想，“天哪，他聽起來就像一只金毛獵狗！”
