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I stayed in every night, plugging away, and based on the time I put in, I should have gotten an A for effort. I got a C.
于是，我每天晚上都待在宿舍里，挑燈夜戰。基于我投入的時間和努力，我的論文應該得A，最后的成績卻是C。
It is virtually impossible to get a C at Harvard if the assignment is turned in.
在哈佛大學，要求上交的作業通常是不可能得C的，
I am not exaggerating—this was the equivalent of a failing grade.
我一點也沒夸張——這簡直相當于留級。
I went to see my dorm proctor, who worked at the admissions office.
我去見了在招生辦公室工作的主管。
She told me that I had been admitted to Harvard for my personality, not my academic potential. Very comforting.
她告訴我，哈佛大學之所以錄取我是因為看中了我的品格，而不是我在學業上的潛質。這話倒挺有安慰作用。
I buckled down, worked harder, and by the end of the semester, I learned how to write five-page papers.
此后，我更加專注、更加努力地學習。到了期末，我終于學會了怎樣寫5頁的論文。
But no matter how well I did academically, I always felt like I was about to get caught for not really knowing anything.
但是，不管我在學業上做得多么好，我總覺得自己會被抓個現形，人們會發現我并沒有真的學到什么。
It wasn't until I heard the Phi Beta Kappa speech about self-doubt that it struck me:
直到我聽到帕吉·麥金托什關于自我懷疑的演講，我被震住了：
the real issue was not that I felt like a fraud, but that I could feel something deeply and profoundly and be completely wrong.
真正的問題不在于我覺得自己像個騙子，而是我感受到了內心深處的某種東西……而且它還是個徹頭徹尾的錯誤。
I should have understood that this kind of self-doubt was more common for females from growing up with my brother.
根據我和弟弟戴維一起長大的經歷，我很清楚這種形式的自我懷疑對女性來說是件尋常的事。
David is two years younger than I am and one of the people in the world whom I respect and love the most.
戴維比我小兩歲，我們之間的感情很好。
At home, he splits child care duties with his wife fifty-fifty;
在家里，他與妻子共同分擔照顧孩子的責任；
at work, he's a pediatric neurosurgeon whose days are filled with heart-wrenching life-and-death decisions.
他是一個兒童神經外科醫生，每天都在見證令人心痛的疾病以及事關生死的決定。
Although we had the same upbringing, David has always been more confident.
盡管我們在同一個家庭長大，但戴維總是顯得比我更自信。
