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So the following episode happened the seventh week of my first semester of my first year at Yale Law School.
接下來這件事發生在我上耶魯大學法學院的第一學期的第七周
Quoting from my writings:
從我的筆記中：
"My two classmates, Rebel and Val, and I had made the date
我的兩個同學，Rebel和Val和我約了一個時間
to meet in the law school library on Friday night to work on our memo assignment together.
星期五一起在圖書館學習我們的備忘錄的作業
But we didn't get far before I was talking in ways that made no sense.
但是我們沒有完成，因為我開始胡言亂語
'Memos are visitations,' I informed them.
“備忘錄是探訪”，我告訴他們
'They make certain points. The point is on your head.
“他們有寫觀點，觀點就在你腦子里，
Pat used to say that. Have you killed you anyone?
Pat曾經就這么說，你殺了人嗎？
Rebel and Val looked at me
Rebel和Val看著我，
as if they or I had been splashed in the face with cold water.
好像我在他們臉上潑了冷水一樣
'What are you talking about, Elyn?'
你在說什么？，Elyn？
'Oh, you know, the usual. Who's what, what's who, heaven and hell. Let's go out on the roof.
哦，你知道的，誰是什么，什么是誰？天堂和地獄，讓我們去屋頂。
It's a flat surface. It's safe.'
那是平的，那里安全。“
Rebel and Val followed and they asked what had gotten into me.
Rebel和Val跟著我，問我怎么了
'This is the real me,' I announced, waving my arms above my head.
我說：這就是真正的我。高高的揮著我的手
And then, late on a Friday night, on the roof of the Yale Law School,
然后，在星期五很晚的時候，在法學院的樓頂上
I began to sing, and not quietly either.
我開始唱歌，很大聲
'Come to the Florida sunshine bush. Do you want to dance?'
來到佛羅里達，陽光和灌木。你想跳舞嗎？
'Are you on drugs?' one asked. 'Are you high?'
“你嗑藥了嗎”有人問，“你high了嗎？”
'High? Me? No way, no drugs.
“high？不可能，沒有嗑藥。
Come to the Florida sunshine bush, where there are lemons, where they make demons.'
來到佛羅里達，陽光灌木，那里有檸檬，那里有惡魔
'You're frightening me,' one of them said, and Rebel and Val headed back into the library.
“你嚇倒我了”，他們一個人說， Rebel和Val回到了圖書館。
I shrugged and followed them.
我聳聳肩，跟著他們。
Back inside, I asked my classmates
回來之后，我告訴我的同學
if they were having the same experience of words jumping around our cases as I was.
他們有沒有同樣的胡言亂語的經歷像我一樣
'I think someone's infiltrated my copies of the cases,' I said.
“我覺得有人進入了我的案件”
'We've got to case the joint.
“我們要把關節裝起來，
I don't believe in joints, but they do hold your body together.'"
我不相信關節，但是它們能把身體連起來。
It's an example of loose associations.
這就是一個散漫聯想的例子
"Eventually I made my way back to my dorm room, and once there, I couldn't settle down.
最終我回到了宿舍。到了后，我沒有辦法安心。
My head was too full of noise,
我腦子里都是噪音
too full of orange trees and law memos I could not write and mass murders I knew I would be responsible for.
到處都是桔子樹和我寫不出來的法律備忘錄，以及那些我需要為之負責任的大規模謀殺。
Sitting on my bed, I rocked back and forth, moaning in fear and isolation.
坐在床上，我搖來搖去，在孤獨和恐懼中呻吟。
This episode led to my first hospitalization in America.
這次發病讓我第一次在美國住院了，
I had two earlier in England.
我前兩次在英國
