And then there was a smash. There was an explosion. There was foam and confusion. The imagination had dashed itself against something hard. The girl was roused from her dream. She was indeed in a state of the most acute and difficult distress. To speak without figure she had thought of something, something about the body, about the passions which it was unfitting for her as a woman to say. Men, her reason told her, would be shocked. The consciousness of what men will say of a woman who speaks the truth about her passions had roused her from her artist's state of unconsciousness. She could write no more. The trance was over. Her imagination could work no longer. This I believe to be a very common experience with women writers—they are impeded by the extreme conventionality of the other sex. For though men sensibly allow themselves great freedom in these respects, I doubt that they realize or can control the extreme severity with which they condemn such freedom in women.
隨即，突然傳來了猛烈的撞擊聲、爆炸聲、水花和混亂。想象與具象相碰撞。女孩從昏睡中驚醒。她的確沉陷于最深刻、最艱難的痛苦狀態。明白地說，她想到了，想到了她作為女人不易言說的身體和激情。理智告訴她，男人會感到震驚。男人們對一個敢于直言激情的女人的評價使她從藝術家的無意識狀態中驚醒，她無法繼續寫作，昏睡狀態結束，想象力隨之中斷。這就是女作家共同的切身體驗——男性極端的因循守舊觀念阻礙著她們。在這些方面，男人可以在理智上允許自我放任，可我懷疑他們未必會意識到或者能夠控制住自己對這種女人的表達自由給予極其強烈的抨擊。
These then were two very genuine experiences of my own. These were two of the adventures of my professional life. The first—killing the Angel in the House—I think I solved. She died. But the second, telling the truth about my own experiences as a body, I do not think I solved. I doubt that any woman has solved it yet. The obstacles against her are still immensely powerful and yet they are very difficult to define. Outwardly, what is simpler than to write books? Outwardly, what obstacles are there for a woman rather than for a man? Inwardly, I think, the case is very different; she has still many ghosts to fight, many prejudices to overcome. Indeed it will be a long time still, I think, before a woman can sit down to write a book without finding a phantom to be slain, a rock to be dashed against. And if this is so in literature, the freest of all professions for women, how is it in the new professions which you are now for the first time entering?
這就是我自己的兩個真實的經歷，是我職業生涯中兩大冒險。第一個：殺死“家里的天使”。我已經做到了。她死了。但第二個：真實地表達自我親身的體驗，我還沒有解決。我懷疑是否有任何女性解決了這個問題。那些障礙仍然力量強大，也很難下定義。從表面看，有什么比寫書更容易呢？從表面看，什么樣的障礙只針對女人而不是男人呢？但是從內心世界看，情況則極為不同。她還要與許多惡魔斗爭，還要克服許多偏見。我敢肯定，如果女人不找到并殺死鬼影、不擊碎巖石般的阻礙，就不能夠坐下來專心寫作。這還需要很長時間。如果不是在女性所能享有的最自由的文學領域，那么在你們第一次踏入的新職業里情況又將如何？
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