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Seeing my father walk through the door to collect me was the best moment of the day.
每次看到父親穿過大門進來接我的一刻，都是那一天最美好的時候。
My mind became a tool that I could use to either close down to retreat from my reality or enlarge into a gigantic space that I could fill with fantasies.
我的思維變成了可以被我利用的工具，我抑或壓抑思維，用它來逃避現實抑或無限擴大，使它成為一個可以被幻想填充的巨大空間。
I hoped that my reality would change and someone would see that I had come back to life.
我曾是那么渴望我的處境得到改變，希望有人能夠看出我已經重回人間。
But I had been washed away like a sand castle built too close to the waves, and in my place was the person people expected me to be.
但我已經像一個被海浪沖刷過的，建在離浪頭太近的沙灘城堡，我的位置已經被一個人們認為的我所取代。
To some I was Martin, a vacant shell, the vegetable, deserving of harsh words, dismissal and even abuse.
對于一些人來說，我是那個空殼植物人馬丁，理應被辱罵、被忽視甚至被虐待。
To others, I was the tragically brain-damaged boy who had grown to become a man. Someone they were kind to and cared for.
對其他人來說，我是那個長大成人的悲劇男孩，曾遭受嚴重的腦部損傷，理應得到照顧和善良的對待。
Good or bad, I was a blank canvas onto which different versions of myself were projected.
不管是好是壞，我像是一面空白的帆布，上面可以投射出我的不同模樣。
It took someone new to see me in a different way. An aromatherapist began coming to the care home about once a week.
需要一個新的人從不同的視角看待我，這時一個芳香療法專家開始每周去一次康復中心。
Whether through intuition or her attention to details that others failed to notice, she became convinced that I could understand what was being said.
可能是因為她的直覺，也可能是因為一些被別人忽視的細節，她逐漸確信我能理解人們所說的話。
She urged my parents to have me tested by experts in augmentative and alternative communication.
她急切的要求我的父母將我送去專家那里做檢查，進行輔助替代的交流。
And within a year, I was beginning to use a computer program to communicate. It was exhilarating, but frustrating at times.
不到一年，我開始利用電腦程序與人交流，這是令人振奮的，但有時令人沮喪。
I had so many words in my mind, that I couldn't wait to be able to share them. Sometimes, I would say things to myself simply because I could.
我腦海里千頭萬緒，但不能與人分享。有時我與自己對話，只是因為我可以這么做。
