I went to the beach and looked out at that sea,
我跑去了海邊,看著那個海,
and I thought I'm going to swim until I haven't got the energy to swim back.
我想我要游泳,直到我沒有體力游回來為止
I was so low. I was shouting at the kids, getting angry with my wife.
我情緒低落,對孩子大喊大叫,對我的妻子生氣。
I begged her to leave me. I felt alone, helpless.
我求她離開我,我感到孤獨、無奈。
You see, I was taught that soldiers don't discuss feelings.
你知道,士兵被教導不要聊個人感受。
So I walked into the waves.
我走進海浪里,
I can still feel the water around my feet,
還能感受腳下的海水。
and suddenly I had this vision of my girls.
突然我的女兒出現在我的眼前。
They saved me. I stopped, walked home and got help.
他們救了我,我停了下來,走回家,去獲得幫助。