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After her mother's death Jo moved to Portugal to teach English as a Foreign Language.
在她母親去世以后，喬移居葡萄牙當教外語的外語老師。
She married Jorge Arantes, a television journalist.
她和喬什·阿朗特斯結婚，他是一個電視記者。
Together they had a daughter, Jessica.
他們育有一個女兒，杰西卡。
But the marriage failed after two years.
但兩年后，婚姻破裂了。
Jo succumbed to depression.
喬被絕望擊垮。
I'd had a short and really quite catastrophic marriage and I'm left with this baby and I've got to get this baby back to Britain and I've got to rebuild us a life.
我有一段短暫而災難性的婚姻，我帶著小孩離開，我帶著孩子回到了英國，我得重建我們的生活。
And adrenalin kept me going through that, and it was only when I came to rest that it hit me what a complete mess I had made of my life.
那種精神上的刺激一直讓我渡過難關，但在我喘口氣的間歇，我才發覺我的生活真是糟糕透頂。
And that hit me quite hard.
那對我打擊很大。
We were as skint as you can be without being homeless. In other words, we were existing entirely on benefits.
我們除了有個寄居之地以外身無分文。換句話說，我們完全靠社會救濟生活。
And at that point I was definitely clinically depressed.
在那個點上，我確確實實地陷入了臨床憂郁癥。
And that's just characterized for me by a numbness, a coldness and an inability to believe that you will feel happy again or that you could feel lighthearted again.
這么形容當時的我：一個麻木的，冷漠的生物，不相信自己還能再感到幸福還能感到愉快。
It was just all the color drained out of life, really.
那時生命里所有的光彩真的都退去了。
And I loved Jessica very, very much and was terrified something was going to happen to her.
我非常地愛杰西卡，害怕有什么事會發生在她身上。
Because I think I got into that very depressive mindset where everything's gone wrong so this one good thing in my life will now go wrong as well.
因為我覺得我已經走入了極其絕望的境地，一切都是錯的，那么我生活中唯一的好事也會變糟。
So it was almost a surprise to me every morning that she was still alive.
所以當我每天早上發現她還活著的時候，幾乎是一種驚喜了。
I kept expecting her to die or... It was a bad, bad time.
我總想著她會死掉，那真的是非常可怕的時候。
Jo's depression inspired her creation of the Dementors in the Harry Potter series.
喬的絕望啟發她創造了哈利·波特小說中攝魂怪這一生物。
"Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth.
“攝魂怪是世界上最可怕的生物之一。
They infest the darkest, filthiest places.
它們出沒在最黑暗、最骯臟的地方。
They glory in decay and despair.
它們以腐化和使人絕望為樂。
They drain peace, hope and happiness out of the air around them.
它們吞噬周圍環境里的安寧，希望和快樂。
Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you."
一旦接近攝魂怪，一切美妙的感覺，一切快樂的回憶都會從你的身體被吸走。”
