Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment; yet she tried to the utmost to speak withcomposurewhen she said:
"You are mistaken, Mr. Darcy, if you suppose that the mode of your declaration affected me in any other way, than as it spared the concern which I might have felt in refusing you, had you behaved in a more gentlemanlike manner. "
She saw him start at this, but he said nothing, and she continued:
"You could not have made the offer of your hand in any possible way that would have tempted me to accept it. "
Again hisastonishmentwas obvious; and he looked at her with an expression of mingled incredulity and mortification. She went on:
"From the very beginning—from the first moment, I may almost say—of my acquaintance with you, your manners, impressing me with the fullest belief of your arrogance, your conceit, and your selfish disdain of the feelings of others, were such as to form the groundwork ofdisapprobationon which succeeding events have built so immovable a dislike; and I had not known you a month before I felt that you were the last man in the world whom I could ever be prevailed on to marry. "
“從開頭認識你的時候起,幾乎可以說,從認識你的那一剎那起,你的舉止行動,就使我覺得你十足狂妄自大、自私自利、看不起別人,我對你不滿的原因就在這里,以后又有了許許多多事情,使我對你深惡痛絕;我還沒有認識你一個月,就覺得象你這樣一個人,哪怕天下男人都死光了,我也不愿意嫁給你。”
"You have said quite enough, madam. I perfectlycomprehendyour feelings, and have now only to be ashamed of what my own have been. Forgive me for having taken up so much of your time, and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness. "
“你說得夠了,小姐,我完全理解你的心情,現在我只有對我自己那些顧慮感到羞恥。請原諒我耽擱了你這么多時間,請允許我極其誠懇地祝你健康和幸福。”
And with these words he hastily left the room, and Elizabeth heard him the next moment open the front door and quit the house. The tumult of her mind, was now painfully great. She knew not how to support herself, and from actual weakness sat down and cried for half-an-hour. Her astonishment, as she reflected on what had passed, was increased by every review of it. That she should receive an offer of marriage from Mr. Darcy! That he should have been in love with her for so many months! So much in love as to wish to marry her in spite of all the objections which had made him prevent his friend's marrying her sister, and which must appear at least with equal force in his own case—was almost incredible! It wasgratifyingto have inspired unconsciously so strong an affection. But his pride, his abominable pride—his shamelessavowalof what he had done with respect to Jane--his unpardonable assurance in acknowledging, though he could not justify it, and the unfeeling manner in which he had mentioned Mr. Wickham, his cruelty towards whom he had not attempted to deny, soon overcame the pity which the consideration of his attachment had for a moment excited.
She continued in very agitated reflections till the sound of Lady Catherine's carriage made her feel how unequal she was to encounter Charlotte's observation, and hurried her away to her room.