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I work in an assembly line in a car factory.
我在一家汽車廠的流水線上工作。
Most days, I just assemble car parts.
大多數(shù)時(shí)候，我只是組裝汽車配件。
Occasionally, they’ll ask me to assay an unknown drugs substance.
有時(shí)，他們會(huì)讓我化驗(yàn)?zāi)撤N不明藥物。
Once in a while, I’ll be asked to assist with breaking up a fight.
有時(shí)，我又去幫忙勸架。
Assault is not common here.
這里很少有人身攻擊。
But now and then, a frustrated worker will assail his assistant by casting aspersions on some aspect of the other’s work.
不過，時(shí)不時(shí)會(huì)有一名灰心喪氣的工人抨擊他的助手，就其工作的某方面進(jìn)行誹謗。
I’m considered an asset in my company.
我被視為公司的寶貝。
But before 20 years ago, I was a different kind of asset to an entirely different type of company.
但20年前，我被另一家完全不同的公司視為另一種類型的寶貝。
They called it “the company” but it was really a secret government group trained to assassinate political leaders.
他們所謂的“公司”實(shí)際上是一個(gè)受過訓(xùn)練、專門暗殺政界領(lǐng)導(dǎo)人的秘密政府組織。
I never aspired to be an assassin.
我從未渴望做個(gè)刺客。
In fact, I was an aspiring chemist and a regular soldier in the army.
事實(shí)上，我是個(gè)有抱負(fù)的化學(xué)家，又是部隊(duì)中的一名常備兵。
All I really wanted was to do something great or important for my country.
我的全部思想就是成就大事、為國效力。
But sometimes, having too great an aspiration can lead you astray.
但有時(shí)，理想過于遠(yuǎn)大只會(huì)將你引入歧途。
I still recall the day of the assembly.
我仍記得那天的集會(huì)。
It was a small gathering of highly skills people like me.
那是個(gè)小集會(huì)，與會(huì)者都是些像我這樣的技術(shù)精湛的人員。
“The company” was assessing our abilities in the areas of weaponry and chemistry.
當(dāng)時(shí)“公司”評(píng)估我們?cè)谖淦骱突瘜W(xué)領(lǐng)域的才能。
I was a top chemist and a natural marksman, probably the best in my group.
我既是最優(yōu)秀的化學(xué)家，又是天生的神槍手，很可能是我們小組中最棒的。
They ascribed my success to my steady hands and sharp eyes, the same tools I used for chemistry.
他們將我的成功歸于我穩(wěn)健的雙手和敏銳的眼睛，這也是我搞化學(xué)時(shí)用的工具。
After the assembly, they gave us our assignments.
會(huì)后，“公司”給我們下達(dá)了任務(wù)。
I was assigned to assimilate into the mainstream society of a Latin American country.
我的任務(wù)是滲透進(jìn)入一個(gè)拉美國家的主流社會(huì)。
It wasn’t long before I was doing things that I will forever be ashamed to admit.
不久，我就開始做些我永遠(yuǎn)恥于承認(rèn)的事情。
It’s been over for about 15 years.
這一切已經(jīng)過去15年了。
But I’ll never feel clean and I’ll never be able to assert that I have been a good man all my life.
但我將永遠(yuǎn)感到自己的骯臟，永遠(yuǎn)無法斬釘截鐵地說我做了一輩子的好人。
