Romain Rolland once said:
'Most men die at twenty or thirty;

羅曼·羅蘭曾說：
很多人在20歲、30歲的時候就死了，

thereafter they are only reflections
of themselves，for the rest of their lives
they are aping themselves,

一過這個年齡，他們只不過變成了自己的影子，
此后的余生不過在模仿自己中度過。

repeating from day to day
more and more mechanically
and affectedly what they said and did
and thought and loved when they were alive.'

日復一日，
更機械，更裝腔作勢地重復，
他們有生之年的所作所為、所思所想、所愛所恨。

Recently, I suddenly realized that
this quote is talking about me.

最近，我忽然發現這則引言說的就是我。

I chose a stable job back as a civil servant
in my hometown under my parents' advice
after I graduated from college.

大學畢業之后，
我聽從父母的建議，
在家鄉找了一個穩定的公務員工作。

The job is easy. And my workload is quite small.
So I have penty of time of mine own to spend.

工作很輕松，工作量也很小。
所以我有充足的時間可以自由支配。

I bought my car and my house
and went on dates which are arranged
by my parents.
Everything goes well in my life.

我買好了車和房子，
并根據父母的安排去約會。
生活中的一切都很順利。

But, last month
I went to a classmates reunion.
And it crashed my heart.

但是，上個月我去了一個同學聚會。
而我的心徹底被打碎了。

When we were having the meal.
Some of my classmates
talked about their interesting jobs
and interesting challenges
in Internet companies.

宴席上，
有些同學在談他們在互聯網公司
那些有趣的工作、有趣的挑戰。

Some of them were talking about
strategies in investing in fund and stocks.

有些談起他們在基金和股票上的投資策略。

Some of them were talking about
all the new skills they have been learning,
which I hadn't even heard of.

有些則在談他們在學的一些新技能，
而這些技能我聽都沒聽過。

But I?
All I could talk about was
that my wife just got pregnant.

而我呢？
我能說的只是我太太前不久懷孕了。

And now it seems like my child is about
to take the same boring path that I have taken.

現在看來，
似乎我的孩子
也要走上我走過的這條無聊道路。

Is this the life that I want?
Is this even life?

這真的是我想要的生活嗎？
這真的是生活嗎？

This suddenly becomes so horrible to me.
I can't live like this.

我突然覺得這無比可怕。
我不能這樣生活下去。

And that's why I started to search for a new job.
I don't want to die when I am thiry.

而這，也就是我重新開始找工作的原因。
我不想在30歲就死去。

Life is only worth living
when there are things to explore.

生活，只有在還有新事物可以探索的時候，
才值得活下去。

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