As she spent longer days and months at the nursing home, I could not help noticing other things. She began to hide her possessions under the mattress, in the closet, under the cushion of her chair, in every conceivable, reachable space. And she began to think that people were "stealing" from her.
隨著她住在療養院的日子越來越長,我不經意間發現了一些其他的事情:她開始把她的東西藏在褥墊下、衣櫥里、椅墊下,任何她能想到和夠得著的地方。她開始認為有人在“偷”她的東西。
When a walker became necessary, my mother took the time to make a bag that could be attached to it, so that my grandmother could carry things around while keeping her hands on the walker. I had not paid much attention to this bag until we went to the nursing home to take her home with us for our traditional Christmas Eve sharing of gifts.
到了祖母需要用助步車時,母親花時間做了一個可以掛在助步車上的提包,這樣祖母把手放在助步車上的同時也能帶上自己的東西了。在我去療養院接她回家過分享禮物的平安夜之前,我都沒太注意到這個提包。
As we left, my grandmother took her long, unsteady walk down the hallway, balancing herself with her walker, laboriously moving it ahead, one step at a time, until finally we were at the car outside. Once she was safely seated, I picked up her walker to put it in the back. I could barely lift it. Then I noticed that the bag attached to it was bulging. Something clicked, but it still wasn't complete enough to grasp.
當我們離開療養院時,祖母拖著蹣跚不穩的步伐走在長廊里,用手扶住助步車以維持身體的平衡,她費力地推著車子,一次只能走一步,走到了外面的車旁。等她坐穩之后,我拿起助步車準備放在后備箱,我幾乎搬不動它。于是我才注意到助步車上系著一個鼓鼓的提包,提包里還有什么東西咯咯嗒嗒地響,但這不足以讓我想知道包里裝了什么。
At home in my mother's house, I was asked to get some photographs from my grandmother's purse. Lifting her pocketbook, I was surprised again at the weight and bulk. I watched as my mother pulled out an alarm clock, a flashlight, a small radio, thread, needles, pieces of sewing, a book and other items that seemed to have no reason for being in a pocketbook.
回到母親家后,母親讓我從祖母的包里找些照片出來,提起她的提包,我又一次驚訝于它的重量和大小。我看著母親從里面拿出一只鬧鐘、一個手電筒、一個小型收音機、針、線、一些縫補的衣物、一本書和一些別的東西,在別人看來這些東西實在沒什么必要放在提包里。
I looked at my grandmother, sitting bent over in her chair, rummaging through the bag on the walker, slowly pulling out one item and then another, and lovingly putting it back.
我看著祖母,她彎腰坐在椅子上,在助步車上的提包里翻找著,慢慢地拿出一件又一件東西,然后再愛憐地放回去。